im a living nightmare. a piece of shit. my mum used to tell me i was collected from the dustbin when i was young. now i believe. i was some kind of shity human in an unwanted place. just like now. i shoudnt gone to dhs in the first place. i could have join cps in anglician. now i feel so hell rotten unwanted. i shouldnt have come to this cold rusty planet full of cold people, who can just chop u off behind u. and u nvr know when ure dead. now im just crying and crying.
my dad says why i keep looking at my hp when im supposed to study. he nvr understands. i was waiting for help from my so called or maybe real friends. to save my soul.
study. he just knows how to say the word study. when he himself didnt back then when he was my age. i can just be a taxi driver like him when i grow up. ill folo his footsteps. easy.
nobody helps. my bro said he suffered when he was my age, so i should suffer equally.
i should came to this bloody cruel retarded fcking asshole world in the first place. my goal is just to die. i live to die. so mean while, i shall make my life wad i want it to be.
when the clock strucks midnight, im always alone. then the hse will be quiet dark and scarcy. then my room will turn big. then ill seem small. im always pathetic. like a retard. i should have been a retard. then iwont come to the best class in khs. then i wont get into dhs. then i wont suffer. now, im talking like a complete loser. oh yes i am. im a loser. LOSER LOSER LOSER LOSER. and when the world closes, and i realise no one replies me anymore, its like just screaming and screaming. no calls back. just me myself in this deadly disgusting world. i hate being kind as nice, when ppl arent. ill end up crulling in my bed, crying all night like i used to.
coz
i act like a loser,
talk like a loser,
move like a loser,
speak like a loser,
react like a loser,
think like a loser.
coz u all know why? because, i AM A LOSER.
i think im welldone with my speech, now i'll just wait patiently for death. and i wish for a family with love.
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im a living nightmare. a piece of shit. my mum used to tell me i was collected from the dustbin when i was young. now i believe. i was some kind of shity human in an unwanted place. just like now. i shoudnt gone to dhs in the first place. i could have join cps in anglician. now i feel so hell rotten unwanted. i shouldnt have come to this cold rusty planet full of cold people, who can just chop u off behind u. and u nvr know when ure dead. now im just crying and crying.
my dad says why i keep looking at my hp when im supposed to study. he nvr understands. i was waiting for help from my so called or maybe real friends. to save my soul.
study. he just knows how to say the word study. when he himself didnt back then when he was my age. i can just be a taxi driver like him when i grow up. ill folo his footsteps. easy.
nobody helps. my bro said he suffered when he was my age, so i should suffer equally.
i should came to this bloody cruel retarded fcking asshole world in the first place. my goal is just to die. i live to die. so mean while, i shall make my life wad i want it to be.
when the clock strucks midnight, im always alone. then the hse will be quiet dark and scarcy. then my room will turn big. then ill seem small. im always pathetic. like a retard. i should have been a retard. then iwont come to the best class in khs. then i wont get into dhs. then i wont suffer. now, im talking like a complete loser. oh yes i am. im a loser. LOSER LOSER LOSER LOSER. and when the world closes, and i realise no one replies me anymore, its like just screaming and screaming. no calls back. just me myself in this deadly disgusting world. i hate being kind as nice, when ppl arent. ill end up crulling in my bed, crying all night like i used to.
coz
i act like a loser,
talk like a loser,
move like a loser,
speak like a loser,
react like a loser,
think like a loser.
coz u all know why? because, i AM A LOSER.
i think im welldone with my speech, now i'll just wait patiently for death. and i wish for a family with love.
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