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what's wrong
hey, WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME?
i think there's some string loose right here in my head,
and that string say: 'respect for family'
it's like i do get HAPPY when I'm with my friends,
but when it's family,
there'll be some stupid dumb ATTITUDE PROBLEM in me.
and it's like some kind of 'i-stick-on-you-forever' tape. i cant seem to stop it, or to take it away.
I'm so pissed at myself.
When I'm talking to my mum, or dad
for no reasons, i just start getting impatient and irritated.
then the 'raised vioces' come in.
maybe all this have a reason.
and it's in me?
I hate all these
impatient-ness
irritated-ness
attitude problem-ness.
It seems like... I'm a two faced person.
maybe i really am. yes. I seem like a different person, when I'm with friends, V.S. when I'm with family.
and after all my super attitude problem-ness, i just have some strong force of regret, and more of guilt, i think.
My attitude may hurt the feelings of my family.
and i think it did.
hey to my friends out there.
- you may never ever know the real me.
so beware... one day if you ever happen to witness me like that, dont freak out.
sorry, cause I dont really know what's happening in me...
sorry to my family too...
really sorry...
From today onwards, I have more plans, and so called goals i think..
1. save $.
and demand to get a low pocket money system instead of a free money flow everyday.
2. stop the bloody attitude.
3. stop being fat. YES
(it's also super two-faced of you mum, and auntie. one minute you say something, another mintue you say somethin else. it contradicts. i know the theory of your tan family already. it's like whenever they say something's NICE, deep down in their heart, they think it's NOT. like you all always say something like 'oh pearl's weight is just right..' etc. dont need the sweet talk, i know it myself. I'm overweight. hey wake up to reality, mum and auntie. please. i'm sick of all these.... sorry..)
i hate everything.
ha. and i really need to face it.
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what's wrong
hey, WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME?
i think there's some string loose right here in my head,
and that string say: 'respect for family'
it's like i do get HAPPY when I'm with my friends,
but when it's family,
there'll be some stupid dumb ATTITUDE PROBLEM in me.
and it's like some kind of 'i-stick-on-you-forever' tape. i cant seem to stop it, or to take it away.
I'm so pissed at myself.
When I'm talking to my mum, or dad
for no reasons, i just start getting impatient and irritated.
then the 'raised vioces' come in.
maybe all this have a reason.
and it's in me?
I hate all these
impatient-ness
irritated-ness
attitude problem-ness.
It seems like... I'm a two faced person.
maybe i really am. yes. I seem like a different person, when I'm with friends, V.S. when I'm with family.
and after all my super attitude problem-ness, i just have some strong force of regret, and more of guilt, i think.
My attitude may hurt the feelings of my family.
and i think it did.
hey to my friends out there.
- you may never ever know the real me.
so beware... one day if you ever happen to witness me like that, dont freak out.
sorry, cause I dont really know what's happening in me...
sorry to my family too...
really sorry...
From today onwards, I have more plans, and so called goals i think..
1. save $.
and demand to get a low pocket money system instead of a free money flow everyday.
2. stop the bloody attitude.
3. stop being fat. YES
(it's also super two-faced of you mum, and auntie. one minute you say something, another mintue you say somethin else. it contradicts. i know the theory of your tan family already. it's like whenever they say something's NICE, deep down in their heart, they think it's NOT. like you all always say something like 'oh pearl's weight is just right..' etc. dont need the sweet talk, i know it myself. I'm overweight. hey wake up to reality, mum and auntie. please. i'm sick of all these.... sorry..)
i hate everything.
ha. and i really need to face it.
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