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PEARL :D

negative mum

wtf.
sorry with that word.
but i really really really really really dislike the enemies.
haha. really big mood change eh? from the posts.

Why does all mums in the world sides with their children, but simply, somehow,
MY MOTHER doesn't.
i cant even remember when's the last time she said something good about me.
i kind of dislike this mother.

she kills my pride with all the negative sayings of hers.
but she dont know.
it hurts so much. it's awful.
i want her to stop.
i told her 'yeah, it's all my fault, you can kill me.'
i cant stand it.
i wanna be away from her.
she's mean.
i hate the fact that i'm crying while writing this post,
but you'll only understand when you get a mother like this.

i think she's feeling terrible that she has me as a daugther.
i think it started when i was young, she told me i was picked up from the dustbin.
JUST BECAUSE EVERYONE THINKS I'M UGLY.
so what mum.
it's with you and dad's genes that formed AN UGLY GIRL, i case you dont know science.
then my aunty has been ranting and saying all over too.
that
i'm dirty.
i'm fat.
i'm ugly.
my face is as flat as dunno what biscuit.

YOU KNOW WHAT YOU PEOPLE?!
I DONT GIVE A EFFING DAMN LA.
say all you want. it's a free country anyway.
all it does is to hurt my pride.
i'm dirtty.
fat
ugly
my face flat.

maybe next life you'll look like me, and get your revenge.
then i'll just say some sorry.

i really hate you all.
this isnt what i thought of as family.

now i'm all alone in this family.
everyone hates me.

there's only my friends, and i hope they wont leave me too.

I'm really sorry I'm ugly, dirty, fat, or anything, family.
you all are so great. you make my heart break.